Embrace

It is amazing to me that I could go through daily life without thinking about how much I need my husband and God. I am amazingly blessed to have a God, a husband and two children who need me, love me and unconditionally accept me for who I am. This weekend a lot happened to me but to put it in the smallest form I was dead before and now I am alive!!!! I am a new song because God is my song!

Jesus Calling:

TRUST ME AND DON'T BE AFRAID; for I am your Strength and Song. think what it means to have Me as your Strength. I spoke the universe into existence; My Power is absolutely unlimited! Human weakness consecrated to Me, is like a magnet, drawing My Power into your neediness. However, fear can block the flow of My Strength into you. Instead of trying to fight your fears, concentrate on trusting Me. When you relate to Me in confident trust, there is no limit to how much I can strengthen you.

Remember that I am also your Song. I want you to share My Joy, living in conscious awareness of My Presence. Rejoice as we journey together toward heaven; join Me in singing My Song. Isaiah 12:2-3; Psalm 21:6

Longing to Trust

Woke up today looking forward to a new day but afraid and unsure. Sometimes I just am so afraid of making a mistake I find it hard to get through a day without anxiety.....wait a minute. I don't have to worry. God can you help me? I am in tears at breaking my son's heart yesterday and I don't want to do that again. What is going to happen today? How will I handle it? What about tomorrow.....Help me please. God's Answer:

TRUST ME ONE DAY AT A TIME. This keeps you close to Me, responsive to My will. Trust is not a natural response, especially for those who have been deeply wounded. My Spirit within you is your resident Tutor, helping you in this supernatural endeavor. Yield to His gentle touch; be sensitive to His prompting.

Exert you will to trust Me in all circumstances. Don't let your need to understand distract you from My Presence I will equip you to get through this day victoriously, as you live in deep dependence on Me. Tomorrow is busy worrying about itself; don't get tangled up in its worry-webs. Trust Me one day at a time. Psalm 84:12; Matthew 6:34

Misunderstood...

Silently crying, my husband asks "What's wrong?" In the silence of myself I was grappling with the complexity of who I am and why I do things. One of the things that I was struggling with was why I watch so many movies and why I obsess over certain characteristics of people and wanting those for myself..Truth, so I really want to admit it?...I don't like being me...There are things I try so hard to change, but never seem to reach my goal. The consequences of my behavior or mindset affects everyone around me and that makes me grieve and wish even more I wasn't me. I love my life, my kids, my husband, my family...just not me the way I am, in it. Swallow...I ask my husband, "Why do you think I watch so many movies?" "You hate your life." Pain hits the heart, but truth erupts from my mouth as I tell him what I had just admitted to myself. "I don't hate my life. I love my life, just not me the way I am, in it. I am making it difficult, I am getting in the way of progress, of healing, of becoming all God wants for me to be." Then God sovereign words come and this is what I hear as He calls to me:

COME TO ME FOR UNDERSTANDING, since I know you far better than you know yourself. I comprehend you in all your complexity; no detail of your life is hidden from Me. I view you through eyes of grace, so don't be afraid of My intimate awareness. Allow the Light of My healing Presence to shine into the deepest recesses of your being - cleansing, healing, refreshing, and renewing you. Trust Me enough to accept the full forgiveness that I offer you continually. This great gift, which cost Me My Life, is yours for all eternity. Forgiveness is at the very core of My abiding Presence. I will never leave you or forsake you.

When no one else seems to understand you, simply draw closer to Me. Rejoice in the One who understands you completely and loves you perfectly. As I fill you with My Love, you become a reservoir of love, overflowing into the lives of other people. Psalm 139:1-4; 2Cor. 1:21-22; Joshua 1:5

Worn out, weak Mommy

Yawn....No sleep, headache, sore throat...how can I get through this day...baby crying, 3 year old saying "Mommy, come one, lets go outside, I want to put my clothes on...Mommy?" Hurry get the kids fed...no come on son, eat....as 1 year old throws the food out of my hands.....throw on clothes, who cares what I wear or if I look dumpy...so I am a dumpy looking mom, whatever.. Again, my 3 year old, "Come one Mommy....lets go play..." Go outside, 1 year old falls because I was helping the 3 year old..."Okay time to go get coffee at the grocery store!!"...all the while my frustration, fear of failing as a parent because I am so tired is building up inside me.....God!! Help me! I don't want to fall. I need you to help not fail as I do so many times. We get home, eat lunch, kids go for nap and then I stop and read this:

Jesus is Calling: IT IS GOOD THAT YOU RECOGNIZE YOUR WEAKNESS. That keeps you looking to Me, your Strength. Abundant life is not necessarily health and wealth; it is living in continual dependence on Me. Instead of trying to fit this day into a preconceived mold, relax and be on the lookout for what I am doing. This mind-set will free you to enjoy Me and to find what I have planned for you to do. This is far better than trying to make things go according to your own plan.

Don't take yourself so seriously. Lighten up and laugh with Me. You have Me on your side, so what are you worried about? I can equip you to do absolutely anything, as long as it is My will. The more difficult your day, the more I yearn to help you. Anxiety wraps you up in yourself, trapping you in your own thoughts. When you look to Me and whisper My Name, you break free and receive My help. Focus on Me, and you will find Peace in My Presence. Phil. 4:13; Prov. 17:22

Breathe....The Voice of Truth Shines through the Lies.

Jesus Calling

LISTEN TO THE LOVE SONG that I am continually singing to you. I take great delight in you...I rejoice over you with singing.The voices of the world are a cacophony of chaos, pulling you this way and that. Don't listen to those voices; challenge them with My World. Learn to take mini breaks from the world, finding a place to be still in My Presence and listen to My voice.

There is immense hidden treasure to be found through listening to Me. Though I pour out blessings upon you always, some of My richest blessings have to be actively sought. I love to reveal Myself to you, and your seeking heart opens you up to receive more of My disclosure. Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Zeph. 3:17; Matt. 7:7